truly, I am flabbergasted at the degradation of Christmas that has happened. i'm disappointed in people! Christmas is supposed to be a time of being with family, enjoying each others' company and growing closer, but it seems that we have gotten into this mindset that the way we show our love and appreciation for each other is by getting each other gifts...RIDICULOUS!! I would rather have NO gifts given to me, and have one good conversation with each person and a hug. That would satisfy me completely. i'm saddened by what i see in people in stores these days--a harried look, cutthroat attitude and a miserable lack of christmas spirit. The spirit still exists, but not when you are trying to buy a Wii or some other 'valuable' commodity. what would the world be like without malls and wal-marts and online shopping?
enough of that rant, i guess that if i was an employee in one of those areas i wouldn't mind at all...
I am going to New York City in 5 days! One of my friend's brothers lives there and he invited me to come along with another guy. We are going to be there for New Years and I'm looking forward to it tremendously! The drive up there will be long, but hopefully interesting and the company is good so at least i won't feel like bashing my head through the window ;)
We come back and a day later we leave for Colorado! so much excitement in so little time. skiing is so wonderful and i wish everyone loved it as much as i do, seriously. my whole family is coming on this trip too...it's gonna be crazy and all the rfcs are now going to understand why i am the way i am...lol. i just hope no one gets hurt and we all have a great time.
It is amazing how humbling some experiences can be. i thought that i was a pretty understanding person and not prone to judgments or prejudices, but i'm seeing that i have looked down on people, even if in a more pitying way (which is sometimes the worst way, i admit). i'm realizing that i have the potential to be just like any one of those people that i have judged, and i'm understanding how to change that but it is also shocking me into humility...a good thing, but sometime painful. i'm also realizing how miserable life can be without God, but also how difficult it can be to draw closer to him while pursuing selfish goals and forgetting what life was like with him. the trough is a dark place indeed.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Sunday, December 2, 2007
quintessential...nice word
Well, the Packers lost, Favre got hurt, geez....but it's all gonna be ok, cause one game doesn't mean that much. The Packers are still going to have an awesome season!
Today was the last church service at North Street, and the first service at Mt. Comfort. It was interesting moving in the middle, police escort and everything (i thought that was a little over the top but i guess moving that many people at once might be hazardous--i heard about one near-wreck =) Something happened today that made me think about how wonderfully and confusingly complex human relationships are. As a Christian, we are supposed to be examples to the people around us of what a life with Christ is like. When I fail to do that, I feel like sometimes its something I can never get back--i feel that with some people, i will never be able to really talk about Christ with them without knowing that they are smirking, inwardly if not outwardly, because they know how imperfect i am.
That's kind of depressing, at least to me, but then the other side of that, or at least adjacent to it, is the fact that people influence each others' lives everyday in different ways, often without knowing it. This influence can be for good, even if that person isn't doing 'good' at the moment. Sometimes I wonder if it all just cancels out or if there's actually any accumulation of good or evil relative to one another in the world. I hope i'm not becoming a nihilist.
Anyway, I'm grateful for a certain person in my life right now, though he doesn't know it, because he's the only friend i feel i haven't disappointed or betrayed right now. funny thing is, some of my other friends don't know this. Like i said, human relationships...incredibly complex and...verrueckt...sometimes.
i really should be finishing my paper and starting on another, but i'm intensely apathetic right now...hopefully it will get done anyway.
Today was the last church service at North Street, and the first service at Mt. Comfort. It was interesting moving in the middle, police escort and everything (i thought that was a little over the top but i guess moving that many people at once might be hazardous--i heard about one near-wreck =) Something happened today that made me think about how wonderfully and confusingly complex human relationships are. As a Christian, we are supposed to be examples to the people around us of what a life with Christ is like. When I fail to do that, I feel like sometimes its something I can never get back--i feel that with some people, i will never be able to really talk about Christ with them without knowing that they are smirking, inwardly if not outwardly, because they know how imperfect i am.
That's kind of depressing, at least to me, but then the other side of that, or at least adjacent to it, is the fact that people influence each others' lives everyday in different ways, often without knowing it. This influence can be for good, even if that person isn't doing 'good' at the moment. Sometimes I wonder if it all just cancels out or if there's actually any accumulation of good or evil relative to one another in the world. I hope i'm not becoming a nihilist.
Anyway, I'm grateful for a certain person in my life right now, though he doesn't know it, because he's the only friend i feel i haven't disappointed or betrayed right now. funny thing is, some of my other friends don't know this. Like i said, human relationships...incredibly complex and...verrueckt...sometimes.
i really should be finishing my paper and starting on another, but i'm intensely apathetic right now...hopefully it will get done anyway.
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