Well, ski trip is over and so begins another countdown to the next. We had some AMAZING snow...it was powder all four days and just gorgeous. I have never had such good skiing, and to make it even better, I had great people to ski with as well!! It was fun having my whole family there too.
School starts in 2 days. I didn't get anything done over the break that I said i would, but i'm not worried about it. This semester is going to be better than last, i have decided and KT agrees, which just about settles it ;)
Matthew had this podcast on his iPod that was this guy talking about friendship from a philosopher's point of view...it made me think about my friendships and how they change, but how they don't change as well. I am really blessed to have the friends that I do, even if sometimes our friendship doesn't make sense, even to the philosophers.
I have an interview at the Hog Haus on monday, and it would be great to work there--close to campus and I think I could make some good money there. If i'm going to pay for next semester and travel this summer, i'm going to need it! Alright, the packers play in about an hour so i need to get to a TV =)
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Saturday, December 22, 2007
what has Christmas become?
truly, I am flabbergasted at the degradation of Christmas that has happened. i'm disappointed in people! Christmas is supposed to be a time of being with family, enjoying each others' company and growing closer, but it seems that we have gotten into this mindset that the way we show our love and appreciation for each other is by getting each other gifts...RIDICULOUS!! I would rather have NO gifts given to me, and have one good conversation with each person and a hug. That would satisfy me completely. i'm saddened by what i see in people in stores these days--a harried look, cutthroat attitude and a miserable lack of christmas spirit. The spirit still exists, but not when you are trying to buy a Wii or some other 'valuable' commodity. what would the world be like without malls and wal-marts and online shopping?
enough of that rant, i guess that if i was an employee in one of those areas i wouldn't mind at all...
I am going to New York City in 5 days! One of my friend's brothers lives there and he invited me to come along with another guy. We are going to be there for New Years and I'm looking forward to it tremendously! The drive up there will be long, but hopefully interesting and the company is good so at least i won't feel like bashing my head through the window ;)
We come back and a day later we leave for Colorado! so much excitement in so little time. skiing is so wonderful and i wish everyone loved it as much as i do, seriously. my whole family is coming on this trip too...it's gonna be crazy and all the rfcs are now going to understand why i am the way i am...lol. i just hope no one gets hurt and we all have a great time.
It is amazing how humbling some experiences can be. i thought that i was a pretty understanding person and not prone to judgments or prejudices, but i'm seeing that i have looked down on people, even if in a more pitying way (which is sometimes the worst way, i admit). i'm realizing that i have the potential to be just like any one of those people that i have judged, and i'm understanding how to change that but it is also shocking me into humility...a good thing, but sometime painful. i'm also realizing how miserable life can be without God, but also how difficult it can be to draw closer to him while pursuing selfish goals and forgetting what life was like with him. the trough is a dark place indeed.
enough of that rant, i guess that if i was an employee in one of those areas i wouldn't mind at all...
I am going to New York City in 5 days! One of my friend's brothers lives there and he invited me to come along with another guy. We are going to be there for New Years and I'm looking forward to it tremendously! The drive up there will be long, but hopefully interesting and the company is good so at least i won't feel like bashing my head through the window ;)
We come back and a day later we leave for Colorado! so much excitement in so little time. skiing is so wonderful and i wish everyone loved it as much as i do, seriously. my whole family is coming on this trip too...it's gonna be crazy and all the rfcs are now going to understand why i am the way i am...lol. i just hope no one gets hurt and we all have a great time.
It is amazing how humbling some experiences can be. i thought that i was a pretty understanding person and not prone to judgments or prejudices, but i'm seeing that i have looked down on people, even if in a more pitying way (which is sometimes the worst way, i admit). i'm realizing that i have the potential to be just like any one of those people that i have judged, and i'm understanding how to change that but it is also shocking me into humility...a good thing, but sometime painful. i'm also realizing how miserable life can be without God, but also how difficult it can be to draw closer to him while pursuing selfish goals and forgetting what life was like with him. the trough is a dark place indeed.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
quintessential...nice word
Well, the Packers lost, Favre got hurt, geez....but it's all gonna be ok, cause one game doesn't mean that much. The Packers are still going to have an awesome season!
Today was the last church service at North Street, and the first service at Mt. Comfort. It was interesting moving in the middle, police escort and everything (i thought that was a little over the top but i guess moving that many people at once might be hazardous--i heard about one near-wreck =) Something happened today that made me think about how wonderfully and confusingly complex human relationships are. As a Christian, we are supposed to be examples to the people around us of what a life with Christ is like. When I fail to do that, I feel like sometimes its something I can never get back--i feel that with some people, i will never be able to really talk about Christ with them without knowing that they are smirking, inwardly if not outwardly, because they know how imperfect i am.
That's kind of depressing, at least to me, but then the other side of that, or at least adjacent to it, is the fact that people influence each others' lives everyday in different ways, often without knowing it. This influence can be for good, even if that person isn't doing 'good' at the moment. Sometimes I wonder if it all just cancels out or if there's actually any accumulation of good or evil relative to one another in the world. I hope i'm not becoming a nihilist.
Anyway, I'm grateful for a certain person in my life right now, though he doesn't know it, because he's the only friend i feel i haven't disappointed or betrayed right now. funny thing is, some of my other friends don't know this. Like i said, human relationships...incredibly complex and...verrueckt...sometimes.
i really should be finishing my paper and starting on another, but i'm intensely apathetic right now...hopefully it will get done anyway.
Today was the last church service at North Street, and the first service at Mt. Comfort. It was interesting moving in the middle, police escort and everything (i thought that was a little over the top but i guess moving that many people at once might be hazardous--i heard about one near-wreck =) Something happened today that made me think about how wonderfully and confusingly complex human relationships are. As a Christian, we are supposed to be examples to the people around us of what a life with Christ is like. When I fail to do that, I feel like sometimes its something I can never get back--i feel that with some people, i will never be able to really talk about Christ with them without knowing that they are smirking, inwardly if not outwardly, because they know how imperfect i am.
That's kind of depressing, at least to me, but then the other side of that, or at least adjacent to it, is the fact that people influence each others' lives everyday in different ways, often without knowing it. This influence can be for good, even if that person isn't doing 'good' at the moment. Sometimes I wonder if it all just cancels out or if there's actually any accumulation of good or evil relative to one another in the world. I hope i'm not becoming a nihilist.
Anyway, I'm grateful for a certain person in my life right now, though he doesn't know it, because he's the only friend i feel i haven't disappointed or betrayed right now. funny thing is, some of my other friends don't know this. Like i said, human relationships...incredibly complex and...verrueckt...sometimes.
i really should be finishing my paper and starting on another, but i'm intensely apathetic right now...hopefully it will get done anyway.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
cheese and stars
Packers and the Cowboys are playing tonight--both 10-1 records, both great teams. It is going to be an amazing showdown. I'm here at Smeal's house because he gets NFL network, the only channel it's on. he's a cowboy fan. the tension is palpable ;)
Life is so unpredictable....every time i think i'm growing up a bit i run into something that makes me realize i'm not. i make poor decisions all the time. how are we supposed to really do well?? ah well, it's an adventure. i'm ready for some more real adventure too. i'm ecstatic about going to nyc over new years and ski trip!!! it will get some of that wanderlust out of my system hopefully.
well, send a little prayer up for the packers, even though God doesn't care who wins, maybe he will give a little shove for the packers if enough people bother him about it...you think? =)
What does God do on a regular basis do you think? i find it fascinating to just think about God, knowing that i really have no way of fathoming what he's up to. anyway, the game's going to start so i'm going to go get a little crazy!
the world is different every minute, which means we have a chance to make a new impression with every person
Life is so unpredictable....every time i think i'm growing up a bit i run into something that makes me realize i'm not. i make poor decisions all the time. how are we supposed to really do well?? ah well, it's an adventure. i'm ready for some more real adventure too. i'm ecstatic about going to nyc over new years and ski trip!!! it will get some of that wanderlust out of my system hopefully.
well, send a little prayer up for the packers, even though God doesn't care who wins, maybe he will give a little shove for the packers if enough people bother him about it...you think? =)
What does God do on a regular basis do you think? i find it fascinating to just think about God, knowing that i really have no way of fathoming what he's up to. anyway, the game's going to start so i'm going to go get a little crazy!
the world is different every minute, which means we have a chance to make a new impression with every person
Thursday, October 11, 2007
absolutes
I hear a lot in religious...and other....circles that we live in a world that is too 'gray' or that there are too few absolutes. i'm going to propose that the opposite is true...let me explain
moses was on campus today. he is a crazy, judgemental, annoying, un-christlike figure. However, as i was listening to him, he started talking about how you have to love your enemies (he talked about Bush and himself as some of those you have to love--he's harder i think ;) and he talked for about 5 minutes and i agreed with pretty much everything he said! amazing, i thought...but then he said "i think catholics are going to hell" and i don't agree with that at all!
my dilema here is that if i were to say something disagreeing with Moses, the people listening to him would automatically assume that i disagree with everything he says. which isn't true...but if i jump in and say that i agree with him on any point, i might get mobbed, i dunno.
my point is that we are too quick to assume that there are only 2 sides to any argument or issue...when i really don't think that is ever the case. I want people to know that I love my Lord because he made me and saved me, which is what Moses alludes to sometimes, but I want people to know that I am altogether different from him in other ways...how do i do that? how do WE do that??
Moses is giving Christianity a bad reputation on this campus, i want to show people that being a Christian is so much more
moses was on campus today. he is a crazy, judgemental, annoying, un-christlike figure. However, as i was listening to him, he started talking about how you have to love your enemies (he talked about Bush and himself as some of those you have to love--he's harder i think ;) and he talked for about 5 minutes and i agreed with pretty much everything he said! amazing, i thought...but then he said "i think catholics are going to hell" and i don't agree with that at all!
my dilema here is that if i were to say something disagreeing with Moses, the people listening to him would automatically assume that i disagree with everything he says. which isn't true...but if i jump in and say that i agree with him on any point, i might get mobbed, i dunno.
my point is that we are too quick to assume that there are only 2 sides to any argument or issue...when i really don't think that is ever the case. I want people to know that I love my Lord because he made me and saved me, which is what Moses alludes to sometimes, but I want people to know that I am altogether different from him in other ways...how do i do that? how do WE do that??
Moses is giving Christianity a bad reputation on this campus, i want to show people that being a Christian is so much more
Saturday, October 6, 2007
trend lines
It is times like these in my life that i appreciate the fact that trend lines exist. I have made some very poor choices recently...and i see myself backsliding emotionally, mentally and spiritually. However, i know that even now I am more aware of myself and closer to God than i was at other times in my life...and so my "trend line" is still positive. It is only by the grace of god that i can see my life from this perspective and i am so grateful for it. i know that better days are to come and that he will bring me out of this funk and make me a more christ-like creature than i was before. praise be to him.
bikes blues and bbq is here in fayetteville this weekend. last night i went and it was a lot of fun. i was walking toward dickson and this guy on a bike just stopped and asked if i wanted a ride. i know many people would say i am an idiot for jumping on a bike with a guy i don't even know, but i run by instinct sometimes and so i did...his bike was hot pink! and he took me up and down dickson once (my first time to do that on a bike and first time to ever ride on a crotchrocket) his name was travis and he nicely dropped me off when i saw some friends...great experience =)
i'm thankful for new friendships and people who will be honest and real, which pushes me to do the same, no matter how hard it comes to me.
this is the first time i have posted on here in a while...and i did it on a whim. it is interesting to see your thoughts form concretely on a computer screen. i won't say that i 'needed' to do that, because i was already, thanks to a friend, able to look at myself objectively last night and dig through all the mess to disentangle myself from it. putting it out here on this blog, though, is an expression of openness that i need to do more often, even if no one ever actually reads it.
so... "I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord" philippians 3:8
bikes blues and bbq is here in fayetteville this weekend. last night i went and it was a lot of fun. i was walking toward dickson and this guy on a bike just stopped and asked if i wanted a ride. i know many people would say i am an idiot for jumping on a bike with a guy i don't even know, but i run by instinct sometimes and so i did...his bike was hot pink! and he took me up and down dickson once (my first time to do that on a bike and first time to ever ride on a crotchrocket) his name was travis and he nicely dropped me off when i saw some friends...great experience =)
i'm thankful for new friendships and people who will be honest and real, which pushes me to do the same, no matter how hard it comes to me.
this is the first time i have posted on here in a while...and i did it on a whim. it is interesting to see your thoughts form concretely on a computer screen. i won't say that i 'needed' to do that, because i was already, thanks to a friend, able to look at myself objectively last night and dig through all the mess to disentangle myself from it. putting it out here on this blog, though, is an expression of openness that i need to do more often, even if no one ever actually reads it.
so... "I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord" philippians 3:8
Sunday, June 3, 2007
one more time
Thanks to all of you who have been looking at my blog...hope you enjoyed it! For those of you who are first-time viewers, make sure you look on the right and read whichever of the archived ones you want to. If you want to know more about any place or person or whatever, email me at megan.matty@gmail.com i don't really have the motivation or time to blog when i'm home...so until the next adventure there will probably be no posts.
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